Suspension of flush water

糟了, 今年的大便沖不走！

And, what is frush water??? Is it fresh, flush water?

*mean*

SMS

Thank you for the sweet words in the SMS. It's really nice, though it did make my hair stand a bit. Heh.

My biggest biggest thanksgiving for this year would be for the new friends that I have. :) Love you guys!

A day to myself

One whole morning and afternoon to myself.

Less FB, less adium.

Look through school admin stuff.

Finally had a chance to look at SM stuff and also time to worry how i'm going to die.

Charmed nearly gave me heart attacks. Felt so tense, worse than watching horror movies. No good to watch in the cold and in the dark alone. haha.

Well, less food for today too, though not necessarily less fats consumed.

Bah. Back to life.

回憶

看看三年前的照片，一切都好不一樣。從沒想過三年內的變化可以那麼大。在照片里的couples都分了，人的樣子都變了，性格也完全不一樣了。一個對我更striking的difference是我那時比現在瘦好多！

變化，好快。變肥，也很快。哈哈。The only constant thing is change seriously.

變變變，我這個烏龜速度的人可要跟上變化的速度！

Dreams

Dreaming when u sleep can bring u to the most amazing places, n also the worst. Mines usually the worst, so it sucks to dream if u ask me.

Sigh

想太多
胃痛了
頭也痛
自找的
到底在期待甚麼鬼自由

神經
還是打回原形

暖暖包

終於買了暖暖包！

還等誰來給我溫暖。瘋了。自己找吧！哈哈。不然都快冷死了。

雖然這根本不夠我冰冷的手，但好過沒有。

現在最大的問題是怎樣保持melody乾淨，因為我發現了my things tend to turn dirty!!

Fingers kept crossed

生氣時往往會說出或許不該說的話。明知道自己是這樣，我就應該有多一些self control.但我沒有，一不開心就說，一點都不像以前的我。說了甚麼自己有時也忘了，因為有些事我真的不想留在回憶里。
因為我說的話，而造成誤會。感到很抱歉，對不起。我會儘量記得， ikarin 閉嘴啦！最討厭連累朋友，最討厭麻煩朋友，最厲害cause destruction。對啦，那就是我。一切的美好，到我手上都會搞砸。
自己看不清自己，那或許最懂我的人是對的。The problems lies with me. Me, yes it's me!
Better keep tabs on myself more.

所有的一切

一切都不會永恆

一切都會被取代

一切都不會完美

一切始終會遺忘

一切都是一場空

失去了‘一切’，是該傷心還是開心呢？

0,0

Jing'er: Karin jie-jie, is God a girl or guy?

Me: 0,0 (trying not to laugh)

Ning'er: Oh I think he's a guy......

哭過就好了

哭過就好了。

我不願再哭。

我只想要開心，安心，自由。

我不想每天想著，睡不著，擔心，煩著。

知道是我的錯，都是我的錯。

錯在我太有耐心，錯在我太習慣等，錯在甚麼都似乎不介意，錯在太包容，錯在我做的一切都不對，不能滿足。

對不起，我錯了。

Christmas

一直期待著一個安靜的聖誕，謝謝santa給了我。

這一個月在香港，又覺得我變了許多。是好還是不好，我不清楚。

突然之間，我不想回到我熟悉的地方了。

好像拋下一切，繼續活在夢中，而只有在這裡才可以吧。

之前好期待回到新加坡。

但在聖誕節的到來，也不知道為甚麼。我害怕新加坡的生活。不知道what to expect，不知道，不知道。太多太多的不知道。又會回到沒有best friend在身邊的那段日子。seriously, 可以嗎？

累了。

Cravings for a quiet 平安夜

好想跟好友一起。

好想。

好想。

Singaporeans in town!!

Hoho!! Really really glad that I have time to catch up with my friends in Hong Kong!!!!

I love spending time with Mich's family..they are so warm, nice and funny!!! Envious of their good ties and the patience they have with one another. :) Playing bridge with them was a mad laugh, seriously. And thinking back about our JC life with duckie, bear bear, our teachers and all... Wow. It's amazing that actually I had so much great memories in NJ, thanks to my friends :) Thank you Mich!

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My friend told me: I'm happy for you, good that you have grown up and hope you can stop hurting yourself!

Haha, well, I guess I know what I'm doing. Or so I hope.

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Disneyland - a winter wonderland

多謝Annie媽帶我們免費進入迪士尼樂園！連買物品都有staff discount！

Disneyland parade :)

The magical castle.

Fireworks!!!!!!!

It's snowing in Disneyland!

Main street in Disneyland after the fireworks.
Disneyland, where the magic begins, and I can bring the magic home. :)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

I still find it interesting. Not that these tests are that reliable, but seriously they give different results when you experience different emotions and do it based on what you 'see' at that particular point of time. Which sometimes..can be true.

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve。

Happy 35th Anniversary to Mummy and Pa!

Wow, I just realised that my parents' wedding is as old as Hello Kitty since Hello Kitty also celebrated her 35th anniversary this year!

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早上乘搭叮叮時，突然好想念家人。

Mummy.

Pa.

阿嬤。

我哥。

家人從不逼我做不喜歡的事。

從小就不給我任何壓力，從沒要求甚麼。他們好疼我，給我的都是最好的。

我忍性。四年前搬出來住。他們也沒強迫我一定要回家住，而且還擔心我在外頭住會不夠錢，一直給我很大的經濟support.

搬回家住了幾個月，再一次的發現他們對我的愛。從不為難我，更不用說，他們做甚麼都是要我開心。在家裡，我就好像小公主，要甚麼就有甚麼，大家都是順著我的，真得把我給寵壞，我都快要變成spoilt brat了。

希望他們能感受到我對他們的愛。我知道我從不表示出，但我真的是愛你們的。

想念。

來了香港兩個星期多，今天才打了第一通電話回家。通電話的短短四分鐘，我聽出了mummy聲音里的concern for me，似乎也有點想念我。我還是那麼的不孝。在電話里，我也儘量裝著沒有任何想念，只想讓她覺得我在這裡過的很好，請不要擔心。其實就好想跟她說一切，一切嘛。好想有她來讓我依靠，依賴，相信。因為她都是為我好，不會丟下我。

好啦ikarin，是你活該。

喜歡nighttime，害怕nighttime

今天一天在迪士尼樂園，很enjoy，很相信這世上是有童話故事的。和natalie還白癡到we made a wish each at this well outside fantasyland，right beside disney castle。

看到大家臉上的笑容，看到好多天真活潑的小孩，看到自己小時候有disney陪伴的自己，我忘了現實世界。在那裡，只有我開心的回憶，開心的心情。童話故事總是happy ending，童話故事總是美麗。晚上的disneyland was lighted beautifully as well。Everything was beautiful。

但是到了夜深人靜，一切消失。快樂消失。Optimism消失。勇氣消失。美麗消失。一切消失。

害怕。

好想有個懂我的人在我身旁陪著，想說就說，想安靜也ok。

回憶，好與不好的回憶。

自己自找啦。哈哈。

今天Minnie說： Love makes everything beautiful。好簡單，好幸福，帶著溫馨的。

But, love makes ugliness surface.

Love makes you happy, love makes you sad.

Love makes you feel, love makes you numb.

Love is everywhere, love is nowhere.

Love is blissful, love sucks.

Well seems like I cannot deny, love is everything... but, no love is not nothing either.

加油！

defeated

在那一刻，我看到，我感受到。

我敗給眼淚。

不停，不停。

哭了，笑了，鬧了。一整晚。

在喝酒半清醒的狀態，看得卻是最清楚。

我認了。罵了。念了。但從沒可憐自己。

把為甚麼都問了。

把答案也都想了。

我怎麼了。

現在比較清醒了。昨晚那麼堅強的我，又離開我了。

I recognised my mistakes, I admitted to my mistakes, I told myself to move on.

But somehow I feel that, now, I have woken up to continue my mistake, to be a living mistake and maybe even living could be a mistake.

Take me to somewhere. Somewhere.

It's time for Disneyland!

So not gonna survive tonight

Flu.

Sore throat.

Stomach upsets.

Shit. I'm so gonna fall prey to the alcohol tonight.

How can I get out of it?

Just wanna get home to sleep in my own bed tonight and then head to disneyland tomorrow.

楊丞琳 - 雨愛

煩

很煩，很煩。

不想想了。

不想懂了。

不想回想。

不想活在不真實中。

不想有任何期待。

不想擔心。

不想騙自己。

不想去管。

不想不做自己。

不想。

想瘋了。

自己瘋到認不出自己。

沒有了自己。

那我是甚麼？

還留著幹嘛？

走吧，走吧。

it's a real world

There is no magic on this world. only tricks.

You either recognise them, or fall for them.

Flame

I saw a lighted candle at the very end of the dark tunnel.

It was bright, perhaps so glaring that it blinded me and made me not see the other lighted candles.

The wind comes, and the candle flickers.

Kept flickering.

When will this candle stop burning, or is it a magical candle that would never go out?

Advice from adults: Avoid playing with fire, you'll only get burnt.

Best movie I've watched this year :)

I so wanna get the DVD to keep!!!!!

新光戲院, North Point

從一年前第一次看到這個地方，一直都很想回到這裡。終於有機會了。

新光戲院不是我們一般的cinema，而是個opera theatre。或許是我suaku啦，但在新加坡真的沒看過。

《Now showing》

蠻像mainstream戲院，告訴audience接下來的戲。

售票方式像normal cinema。

戲院。

Life

When there's something, you hide.

When there's nothing, you show.

珍珠奶茶

今天喝了香港版的珍珠奶茶。

是不錯喝啦，有一種roasted tea的味道。

但還是比不過在宜蘭冬天時，喝的熱珍珠奶茶。那感覺到現在還是最好的，是我喝過最好喝的珍珠奶茶。應該是因為地方對，company對，感覺對吧。

回不去的過去，好想念。但也不至於要回到以前啦，因為如果沒有以前，就不會有現在。

醒了

那不是我。

不想要那樣的我。

不是很喜歡那個我。

要怎樣面對這個我呢？

:)

i love having time to myself to rest, and my itunes.

心酸

“婆婆几十歲了，你對我講話的態度放好一點，婆婆也比較爽啊。”

我還是不能認同一些行為。聽到那句話，真的，被你說我每次對家人都不擺出心情，被你說我假，也好過我態度不好，讓他們傷心吧。

不要在 take your family for granted 了。因為他們不曾放棄你，也不會的。他們是愛你，關心你的。

明天以後

我不難過

A trip to Shenzhen!

Popo on a train.

Cheap meal!!

Manicure!!
On Shenzhen streets!

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When we were entering China, they actually check everyone's temperature by using the forehead thermal scan. Kinda inefficient, and I saw that they brought two guys away, possibly due to them having temperature too high.

When it was my turn, they scanned it twice. Shit - that's all I could think of. Well, they thought my temperature was too high, so this lady brought me back to the other side through this really scary passageway where I think maybe I could be mugged there. Haha. Then she gave me a mask and made me wear. -,- fine, I wore it, and I saw the two guys who were brought there before me in the room. Then she made me stick a clinical thermometer under my armpit. Wah lao eh, damn troublesome lah. I was giving the guys looks and they were exchanging looks as well. Then he had to take out the thermometer, so he had to stretch from under his shirt to get it out, while exchanging looks with me to say this whole thing is so damn ridiculous. Of course eventually, all of us were certified to be not sick. What a waste of time.. and the stupid lady told me to walk back to the initial place myself, meaning I had go to thru the stupid passageway with all the lao bei beis smoking. -,- irritating leh!

And going to Shenzhen is actually rather scary. When we were alighting from the cab and Nat was waiting for her change, the beggars practically wanted to climb into the cab to take the money from her. She alighted, and this old man beggar practically stuck to her and was stretching his hand to her wallet. Very scary, and very persistent.

The shop owners are very scary at pulling customers too, and really 給你臉色看.. scary man. but it's a good place to go cos everything's affordable!!

My birthday in Hong Kong!

6 Dec: KTV!!!! After waiting for soooo many months, and taking a plane to the KTV place, finally I got to sing KTV! Buffet dinner + singing!!!

7 December: Agnes B restaurant at Causeway Bay! Me and Nat have been wanting to try this restaurant since we kept passing by it last year! Finally there's a chance to! Very nice ambience, of course the food is a little pricey for the standards given the brand, but still worth going!

After the dinner at Agnes B restaurant, headed to meet Gideon for sushi supper! That shows how filling the dinner was for me. Haha!

My new porter bag!! Thank you nat! We have been looking at buying this bag for more than a year already too!

Seems like my 22 year-old birthday in hong kong was to do everything that we have been wanting to do in the past! Nonetheless, it was a happy birthday :)

Thank you to all fun and surprises I had for my birthday in Singapore too!! I seriously, fell in love with all my friends! Haha!

開心與傷心

我不夠認份
所以怕再為誰作出犧牲
愛要有天份
所以我始終學不會放任
我不夠天真
不允許我傻傻的等
對自己殘忍
多殘忍 我要有分寸

我太過認真
所以才相信所謂的永恆
愛讓人恍神
所以止不住不小心沉淪
我太負責任
不允許有太多悔恨
對自己坦誠
多坦誠 我自有分寸

我只是無辜的人
很需要歎氣聲
有一些文字的吻
只留給傷過的人
明知道有些問題
沒有答案還是要問
原諒我 因為我就是 這樣的女生

好奇怪的感覺，開心和傷心兩者都在。
I have to learn to say no, learn to stop going on when my intuition has already told me no.
4 years ago I had a chance to stop, but I let it pass. I held on, thinking things would turn out beautiful like what you said.
一傳眼，已經好久好久。讓你佔取我心裡的位置太久了。or so I thought at least.
I let my heart rule my head then. So much for being a logical person, but when it comes to actions, my heart wins.

I closed my heart to others who came along.
I let everything go pass me.
I told myself you were the one.
I waited in vain.
I lived a lie.
I lied to myself.
Who is the person I see in myself for the past years?

Why, why must it be like that.
Why did I let you bind me to the "future" that only you saw in us?
Why did I choose to believe you?
Why did I do so much, missed so much of my life just for you?
Why did I stop there for so long?

Maybe I did think I loved you.
Maybe it was just a change that I was reluctant to face.
Maybe you were just conveniently there at that time, and it was 習慣 rather than 喜歡.
Maybe it was just out of loneliness that I thought I had you always.
Maybe I was just dumb, with the stupid personailty that you have always faulted.

Now I stand here, deciding that it is time to move on.
Again, I know this is what I want, and I let my heart rule my head again.
I want to really thank you to have had been there once, to have taught me so much, to have let me seen the world through you, to have let me grown up, and stronger.
Now I am here, wanting to find me, the real me.
I am happy all is clear, I am relieved I am free, but I do not deny that the truth hurts.
The truth hurts, or does it not?
A surface wound is painful, but a deep slice thru would not be. Just bleeding, and bleeding..
For the past years I have many surface wounds, some recovered, some scarred for life.
I cannot decide if I moved on without a fresh wound, or this time, it's so deep that I cannot even feel it.
Numb.
Happy?
Sad?
感覺不到啦！

Tears roll down, but why, I really cannot determine. Is it happiness, sadness or mere fear of the new future that I am expecting? The one sentence you made that could have summed up everything has been replaying in my mind since you said it, and yes, that sentence hurts.

In any case, everything was in my mind, everything is in my mind. It is my mind to be cleared by myself, and only myself.
I will find my way, no matter what.
No, losing you is not losing everything at all. You might have been everything then, but I will soon find my everything again.

What I can be sure now, I can start living for myself. But my intuition again tells me that I might be falling into another trap that I am setting for myself. Because once again, it seems like I might let my heart rule my head.

i know...

i know... i'm gonna feel like shit pretty soon i guess...
but till then, i'm gonna ENJOY myself!

自己的步伐

好快。
一切都好快。

我跟的上自己嗎？

好冷，不想了。手腳冰冷，只想溫暖，想好好睡一覺。

解放

終於。

我不知道。

放開一切吧。

真的是這樣嗎？

繼續往前走。

希望始終會遇見一個屬於我，的你。

不管怎樣，祝你快樂，祝我快樂 － 那就是我許的第三個願望。

你問，我答

你問我有後悔嗎。

我說沒有。

但，還是好想念。

Noob @ gym

First time using the changing room at the clubhouse..after I happily changed and looked at the mirror to check that I am ready to enter the gym and don't look like shit because the outfit kinda felt..weird.. I realised, I was still wearing my CAP. Dumb. So I had to walk back into the changing room to put my cap in the locker.

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the fox: oh man I hope we're not caught photographed doing this man.

Me and the fox. Trying to find the 'on' switch for the cycling machine that we wanted to use. Searched high and low, front and back...checked the plugs and wires. SO noob!!

And after I went to ask the receptionist, I realised that we have to paddle to get the machine on. Stupid.

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Having jelly legs now from cycling, but seriously I didn't perspire much..does that mean, I didn't lose any weight? Grrrrr... I guess not.

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DIET!!!!!!

the voice in my heart vs the voice in my head

腦里的聲音一直不讓我踏出把自己封鎖起的世界。

但現在，心裡的聲音似乎越來越清楚了。

我，也好像越來越確定我要的。

但，做得到嗎？

會不會始終還時被腦里的那個聲音說服呢？

傷心或開心，應該是自己的選擇吧。

7 December

It has been 22 years.

It's time to get a life! My life.

Finally got to go to the KTV last night. Coincidentally, at 12 midnight, the song that came on screen was 祝我生日快樂 (Landy).

難道二十二歲，注定要寂寞？

一個月

星期天就飛往香港去。

這一個月，

我會好想念好多好多。

總覺得開始習慣時，就是該改變的時候。

不在時，會有人記得我的存在嗎？

一個月後

朋友還會記得我嗎？

見到他們會有剛認識的尷尬嗎？

我在新加坡一個人的生活，是不是要從新再來？

期待著，也帶著一絲的害怕。

真是沒有用的我！

Essentials of Exams

iKarin had a really good day today..

For research methods (despite screwing up presentation):
"This is truly a well written - adequately researched paper.
Good lit review
Good methodology
Proper data analysis
Extensive discussion
Good recommendation
Tables and diagrams in the appendices are clear and self-explanatory
Seriously consider submitting to a journal. I will give you pointers to that.
30/30."

I have to say, THANK YOU GUYS!! It has been great working with u all, and we managed to get pass this module and ended it on a happy note (other than the pending exam tml... :S)

For ethics:
"Evidence of a superior, comprehensive and deep knowledge of the module content that is relevant to the topic. The critical discussion does show evidence of a good research and extensive reading beyond the recommended texts, including critical evaluation of sources. The choice of topic is not very challenging but the argument is very clear and concise. The historical overview couples well the different views on privacy, excellent analysis of modern day forms of surveillance and its various forms (commercial, government), more could have been done to explain the summary and its thesis that users will eventually “strike back”. The concept of “information snooper-highway” is a funny metaphor :-) especially in the Singaporean context – good point :-) Congratulations on an excellent essay."

Good thing I didn't waste my time at starbucks! This was the horrendous essay that I decided to change topic about 26 hours before the deadline, and within these 26 hours, I had to go work as well. Thank you lucky god. Although the grades are not out, but at least the comments are quite encouraging. Without class participation and a not that wonderful midterm, I can try pray that hopefully I still do ok. :)

Other than getting reassurances from project feedback, I got to study with my favourite people in my favourite room and ate my favourite fries! Woohoo!

Today will be a day in history that won't repeat man.... When will iKarin be so lucky again?

=,=

Came home alone today.
Mum: Eh? Today no study centre at our house already ah?
=,=!

Doraemon game

The worst thing to get in the doraemon game: the card that doesn't allow anyone to talk to you, especially when you don't even know the rules of the game well!!

Great, haha. I was the first one to get the card number 9, and suddenly you realise you have no more friends..and no one wants to talk to you. AND, I was desperately trying to find out if I'm allowed to talk, or answer during other games..but of course... i was ignored. very very very sad. u see who your true friends are at this point of time. haha!

And the next worse thing would be to drink and be a little blur, and then answer those people who got number 9 card and doing their best to set traps so that other people will answer them!! ahhhhhh.. sometimes you just cannot control and will answer mah...

I'm starting to love my social life - people, life, hotel, drinks, photos, fun, laughter, teasing, nua-ing, mocking, bullying ibun (ok i'm not supposed to like this but ibun does bring joy to me..haha), meeting new friends etc. - a break from reality! So will miss u guys when i'm away!!

One sentence to describe all these feelings i have for them: i am a lucky girl to have met u all! :)

Hopeless at exams

Mum: What time is your paper on Wednesday?
Me: 2-4pm.
Mum: Oh, afternoon paper ah.
Me: Ya.
-pause-
Me: No, 1-3pm.
Mum gave me a look.
Mum: Wah lao exam also dunno...

hahaha.

Random thoughts

Can't help but agree with some things my friend said:
"absence doesn't make the heart grow fonder, absence just makes the heart cheat."
"if u're in a relationship but u dun wan to make it known, then it's not a relationship."
"if u're so in love with the person, u won't care what others think and will openly declare the relationship."
"in a relationship, the personalities will exchange: the girl becomes more like the guy and the guy becomes more like the girl."
"I know he dotes on me, but that's not the way I want - being possesive n protective. Why don't he buy me a flower instead?"

As I grow, I realise that love really doesn't linger on one person only. Always wondering why people are willing to marry someone who is not the love of their life, but I think I can understand now already. Humans are born social creatures. No matter how much u may think u're a loner, or can be alone without someone, it is undeniable that there will be many times u just wish for someone else who understands, who listens, who just merely, will be there. Yet, as I see more of the world, I realise that what people say is so true - 这个世界只能靠自己。Few people will give up their all for u.

The stubborn me use to think that my life might be different, my life might not be affected by reality and I can control what I want. But sadly, reality is reality. Coming to terms with reality actually makes more sense than trying to fight it with no good reason or goal in mind. Fairytales exist because of the existence of the not so happy ending reality.

其实我好像一早就决定放开一切， 因为我很清楚那是我不会想要的。既然如此，我为何还要管那么多。神经病耶，哈哈。不爱了，不能不舍得啊。不然，根本就是自找的。

"you cannot change a person, you can only help him find his way."

Maybe, I need help in finding my way. But I must remember, maybe, the only dependable person in this world, is myself. So, the only person to help me, is myself.

Good luck Karin!

原諒我就是這樣的女生

作詞：戴佩妮
作曲：戴佩妮

我不夠認份
所以怕再為誰作出犧牲
愛要有天份
所以我始終學不會放任
我不夠天真
不允許我傻傻的等
對自己殘忍
多殘忍 我要有分寸

我太過認真
所以才相信所謂的永恆
愛讓人恍神
所以止不住不小心沉淪

我太負責任
不允許有太多悔恨
對自己坦誠
多坦誠 我自有分寸

我只是無辜的人
很需要歎氣聲
有一些文字的吻
只留給傷過的人
明知道有些問題
沒有答案還是要問
原諒我 因為我就是 這樣的女生

一念之間

白癡。
笨蛋。
傻瓜。

－－－－－－－－－－

一念之間發現你的愛情竟然不見
這幾年你留下的原來只有謊言
說得再美也無法沉殿　空洞得可憐
一念之間發現愛情竟然是種危險
這一夜我哭了好幾遍
靠得再近也是種虧欠
我不是你隨隨便可以敷衍

－－

裝偉大。

我需要個大擁抱！！ 哈哈。

坏人

有个上了年级的人跟我掏两块，我竟然回了他一句＂对不起，我帮不到。＂
走的时候心里还在想，要是每个跟我掏钱的我都给，那我不是变成charity了。但是，走着走着，心里感到蛮不安的。开始气自己，干吗心情不好而拿别人来出气。能帮就帮嘛。换成是我，也会希望在需要帮忙时，会有个人肯帮阿。回头望，看不到老人了。
三个小时后，回到了同样的地方，看看老人是佛还在。当然，哪里可能啊。
对不起陌生人，因为太顾自己而没帮到您。

關於我愛你 (張懸)

作詞：焦安溥 作曲：焦安溥 編曲：Algae

你眷戀的 都已離去
你問過自己無數次、想放棄的
眼前全在這裡
超脫和追求時常是混在一起
你擁抱的 並不總是也擁抱你
而我想說的; 誰也不可惜
去揮霍和珍惜是同一件事情
我所有的何妨 何必
何其榮幸
在必須發現我們終將一無所有前
至少你可以說
我懂 活著的最寂寞
我擁有的都是僥倖啊
我失去的, 都是人生
當你不遺忘也不想曾經
我愛你

在必須感覺我們終將一無所有前
你做的 讓你可以說
是的 我有見過我的夢
我擁有的都是僥倖啊
我失去的都是人生
因為你擔心的是你自已
我愛你

裝甚麼。

怎麼每次被問時，感覺上給的回答都不是心裡所想的。
為甚麼要裝呢？
但，又有誰能了解。
裝著，不用解釋，比較容易。
－－－－
喝酒，解放心情。不然我都快要瘋了。
－－－－


女: 你控訴我 接吻接上癮 密密外遇 令你很痛恨
你呷醋呷上癮 膽敢 去諷刺我 不愧是女人
男: 平時和人 如何尋開心 捏著浴巾 去擁抱別人
苦苦的啞忍 離開你 合 : 沒要緊
女: 你作個證據 再對我教訓 男: 和他搞公司 是你蝦我笨
女: 我放棄奮鬥你至安心 男: 跟他幾點鐘 方有著快感
女: 堂堂男人 別太過份 男: 如何纏他 我當顧問
女: 何必於一起 沒半點信任 男: 三天不見了 談何被信任

女: 睡就睡 男: 你作對 女: 你喝醉 男: 請不必屈我喝醉
女: 梳化都給你割碎 男: 全都因你衰

女: 睡就睡 男: 你說對 女: 你撤退
男: 跟他好一對愛侶 我走開你沒負累
女: 請你滾 滾出去 男: 你愛滾不配做人 爬出去
合: 鬼上身 趕不退 男: 我有信心不怕行雷
合: 看心虛會是誰
女: 你去 男: 認罪 合: 然後看死你落淚

女: 從未了解你 男: 我偏太縱寵你
女: 我也太縱你 男: 你當我已死
女: 別日夜在妒忌 男: 假得你
女: 我也有吻過你 男: 是為著好奇
合: 天都知 你與我 誰人有理 男: 天天想你 女: 才叫你妒忌
男: 彼此躲避 女: 自卑的你日嘈夜嘈調情亦無味
男: 終於嘲笑我 我愛你不起

男: 和人愛吧抱吧吻吧叫吧去吧舞吧 還是算吧
女: 酸吧苦吧哭吧飲吧湯吧癲吧 別要醒吧
男: 早已輸了不怕不怕不怕不怕 隨便對他笑我如何小家
合: 咒吧 女: 你不化
男: 憎你 憎我惹起對罵 女: 講真因你極小家
合: 你使我羞家羞家真羞家

女: 再見 男: 不見 合: 誰又有空再受罪
女: 再見 男: 分居 合: 無謂吻傷我味蕾

Warwick Avenue by Duffy

When I get to Warwick Avenue
meet me by the entrance of the tube
we can talk things over a little time
but promise me you won't stay by the light

When I get to Warwick Avenue
please drop the past and be true
don't think we're okay just because I'm here
you hurt me bad but I won't shed a tear

I'm leaving you for the last time baby
you think you're loving but you don't love me
and I've been confused outta’ my mind lately
you think you're loving but I want to be free
Baby you hurt me

When I get to Warwick Avenue oh
we'll spend an hour but no more than two
Our only chance to speak once more
I showed you the answers now here's the door

When I get to Warwick Avenue
I'll tell you baby, that we're through

Cos' I'm leaving you for the last time baby
you think you're loving but you don't love me
and I've been confused outta my mind lately left
you think you're loving but you don't love me
I want to be free, baby you've hurt me.

All the days spent together, I wish for better
and I didn't want the train to come, now it's departed
I'm broken hearted, seems like we never started.
All those things here together, when I wished for better
And I didn't want the train to come

You think you're loving, but you don't love me
I want to be free.
Baby you've hurt me, you don't love me,
I want to be free, baby you hurt (heard) me.

these are what people around me told me

From my manager:
"oh you got your hair back finally!!"
=,=!!

From my old-time friend:
Me: I have my own life what.
Him: Oh you finally woke up.
=,=

From a guy trying to promote Raffles Hotel membership (who was actually looking for nat on my phone instead of me actually):
"i wish u all the best in ur studies, don't give up."
This is actually very very appropriate at this point of time because I was giving up reading about herbal medicine (which I only read 12 slides over 2 hours before his call..!!)

From my dad:
"ah nae gao pec, zo teacher xiang ho."
He claims that with a normal job, I can't survive because I only have 10-14 days annual leave, which is totally not enough for me to go overseas every year. So he thinks that teacher is the best job for me since, at least, I have 2 long holidays which I can go overseas.
=,=

From my friend in Hong Kong:
Me: I'm going Hong Kong soon!!
Him: Lol. You are coming back, not going.
Me: =,= !!

And when I said I can be a maid to get a work permit in Hong Kong,

Him: u shudnt be a maid la. u shud work with natali as new twins. the old twins are screwed now, we need new ones.

=,= what conservations i have been having...

生活

在這個世界

要一個人，真的好難。

不要一個人，也好難。

是怎樣呢？

為甚麼自己的生活，總得entwine with別人的。

The individual lives in the social.

The social lives in the individual.

There's just no way to escape I guess, that's the way we are born, the world we are born into.

這，叫做 ‘認命’ 嗎？

這世界有 ‘自由’ 嗎？

還是，我把自己的自由吞沒了。

非常討厭認命的我，為甚麼現在會變成這樣的我？

真的像人們所說的，一個人是不完整的嗎？

唐人街 （林宥嘉）

曲：西樓
詞：黃偉文

灑把蔥花加個蛋 不在揚州的炒飯
心裡正在怨都快關門 誰還未買單
妳說餛飩賣不完 正好拿來作晚鋼

我看著窗外的珍珠港 配樂是償還

逛一條隨機的街 (柏林或米蘭的街)
找一種注定的感覺 (噢就是這裡的感覺)
我不惜環遊全世界 破了鐵鞋 來赴這前生之約

找一條有妳的街 (開羅或京都的街)
找一種回家的感覺 (是時候停下的感覺)
傳說中的歸根落葉 曾經多不屑 原來最渴望的 不過這些

熨著別人的襯衣 著我們的孩子
叫什麼名字 小珠桃子 還是Naomi

逛一條隨機的街 (柏林或米蘭的街)
找一種注定的感覺 (噢就是這裡的感覺)
我不惜環遊全世界 破了鐵鞋 來赴這前生之約

找一條有妳的街 (開羅或京都的街)
找一種回家的感覺 (是時候停下的感覺)
傳說中的歸根落葉 曾經多不屑 原來最渴望的 不過這些

大紅的燈籠高高掛 處處是古董和字畫
雖然很廉價 總算像個家

普天下的唐人街 (普天下的唐人街)
都是個巨大情意結(牌坊後華麗的幻覺)
可是妳漂泊在天涯 一萬零一夜 一定想回家過節

在一條陌生的街 (華沙或首爾的街)　
找一種熟悉的感覺 (流浪將因妳而終結)
我已經環遊了世界 踏破了鐵鞋 是時候過一些 平凡的夜

－－

在這一刻，我真的真的好希望你就在我身邊。

只要告訴我 it's ok，就可以了。

karin vs ikarin

另一個自己 林宥嘉

曲：宋念宇
詞：施人誠

我發射我的歌當作訊號
去找你或被你 找到
我昇起我的夢當成座標
去引導你前來 擁抱

不同的臉孔 但同步心跳 同一套細胞

我就是你 你就是我 另一個自己
我在這裡 你在哪裡 哪天能相遇
你寂寞嗎

不被誰瞭解 有什麼重要
這世界上有你 就好
不同的姓名 但同樣渺小 又同樣驕傲

我就是你　你就是我　另一個自己
是因為你　才不哭泣　不懷疑自己

我很努力　為了讓你 看得起自己
你知道嗎

funny mum

Mum: 你可以跟那個ji neing講....

Me: ji neing (lizard???)? qiling lah. =,=

Crazy mum. Bad memory at remembering names.

-----

Just showed my mum teochew operas on Youtube. She was so fascinated, and said she will watch when she goes for her attachment next year.

Then she was complaining that her hard disk is not working and went to take and try. AND she came back with a teochew songs ktv vcd thing. OMG. Just spent one hour listening to the disc with her. Very unproductive in terms of doing my project because my full attention was with her! But it's really interesting to see what type of memories seem to be going thru her head, how her eyes gleam when she mentions certain things and explains things. :)

-----

Wonder what type of memories will I have when I'm 54?

被風吹走了

站在河邊，微微風吹著。

想想這兩個月的我。

想想這兩個月所發生的。

想想這兩個月的生活。

失落時，都有朋友在身旁。

開心時，都有朋友陪我笑。

那麼幸運的我，似乎把身旁的都take for granted。

所以從現在起，我不能墮落下去！努力生活！

時間從沒停留過，從沒等我。在不爭氣，甚麼都會是零。肯定不是我要的生活。

今天終於是晴天了。

台灣買的，超喜歡

你好，這是我家地址。海角七號。

bad sleeping habit!

怎麼四點睡，現在又起來了。

超累的睡法。

我很不喜歡。=(

*yawns*

～

海角七號電影原聲帶

愛你愛到死

愛是什麼東西

不果就是種遊戲

情是什麼玩意 不就是玩玩而已

Honey Darling Babe 或是叫我小親親

只要哄我高興 冥王星都陪你去

愛你愛到不怕死 但你若劈腿 就去死一死

woo~~愛你愛到不怕死 Babe

愛我請你讓我瘋狂一次

http://colorgenicstest.com/

2nd time taking this.. as true as ever according to my mood at that point of time. Interesting how much colours tell.

How come I seemed so much more..sure of what I wanted when I took this in February. What am I so lost now?

----

You are a very emotional and sensitive individual. Your life and love of life is dominated by your emotions - you have great feeling towards your fellow man and you are always full of enthusiasm but be careful, you tend to let your heart rule your head and this being so, you could be easily hurt - as perhaps you may have indeed been hurt in the past.

All of your dreams and hopes have not materialised and consequently you are unsure of which way to go. This uncertainty has led to considerable stress but you have sufficient 'strength of mind' to overcome this state of affairs although it will take some time.

You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence but you realise that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.

It would seem that an existing situation or relationship is unsatisfactory and you feel that there is little that you can do about it without 'some help from your friends', but you have no desire to show the world how vulnerable you really are and therefore you consider it inadvisable to display affection or be over demonstrative. You regard this particular relationship as a depressing tie and although you would like to be independent and unhampered, you don't want to run the risk of losing anything. All this leads you to react 'touchily' and with impatience, while the urge to 'get away from it all' results in considerable restlessness and stress. Your ability to concentrate may suffer.

You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality.

NUSCO

看到NUSCO網站的running photos banner，突然好想念華樂。似乎有一種想家的感覺。

iKarin with pink hair

Me: *waves* Do you remember me?

P: *Stunned look*

Me: *Stunned too* (did I recognise wrong person?)

P: *after thinking* karin ah??

Me: YES!!

P: I only remember your pink hair!!

Me: Haha, so this is the real me *points to myself up and down*

一個人到底應該睡左邊或右邊呢？

好習慣身旁有個懂我的人。

好習慣到哪裡，身旁都有個人。

好習慣吃飯有個人陪我。

好習慣上課有個人跟我bitch。

好習慣逛街有個人陪我說說笑笑。

好習慣不用一個人走路回家，一個人搭電梯。

好習慣睡覺前有個人陪我談心。

好習慣有個natalie在我身邊。

太習慣了。變壞習慣了。

每天空蕩蕩的生活，好沒意思，好累。不懂該往哪裡走，不懂該怎樣走。

沒有方向感的我，一個人，迷路了。

wa um zai

dad: ler di xi ke hiang gang?

me: lac ho.

dad: di xi dinrg lai?

me: yi guey.

dad: ke ah ne gu. gai nang lo zo gang, ler ai zuo ni?

me: um zai, ka yi gai cousin tuition lor.

dad: siau.

Baking time!!!

To my dearest friends out there! Please do not stress yourselves out ok? Exams are coming, deadlines are all due. So, JIAYOU!!!!

I'm sorry that my way of de-stressing through baking affects u guys, but hope it did cheer u all up, and gave a little boost! =)

Poof presentation!

The most exciting presentations in my whole university life must have all taken place this semester.

Presentation 1 (ok) - child surveillance

-just pretended and assumed everything to bluff people

-pretend to feel confident even if you feel like shit

Presentation 2 (success) - pink dot event

-very interesting questions formed around it

-happy presentation and slides were pink (for once)!!

-we all wore pink!!

Presentation 3 (failed) - the long tail

-class was stone-faced

-our group went out to emo during the break in class

Presentation 4 (success) - microfinance (P2P lending)

-comments like "it's really interesting"

-rush rush rush n within time limit!

Presentation 5 (failed!!!) - privacy and self-disclosure

-didn't even get to present except to say one line because lecturer deemed whole part to be irrelevant

-total stun-ness

-post-presentation trauma = forgot to upload report!

Presentation 5 really gave me an experience of a lifetime yesterday. I have never prepared so early for a presentation before, neither spent so much time researching for relevant backing points for my part.

2 nights of not sleeping + days of hard work can be summed up in 1 line: My research has found these factors to be irrelevant to our study, and we will drop them as factors.

Great, my group (and i think the class) were all stunned. OMG. Level 4 modules really make you learn.

So the worst presentation in my life...is because I didn't even get to present.

And with the report so screwed, this means I better study doubly hard for this exam. Poof.

dad's using mac!

As usual, PC was giving problems in my house, so I offered to let my dad use my laptop to do his i-banking.

Of course there were a lot of difficulties. For example, he didn't even recognise where the mousepad was and was trying to look for the external mouse. Taught him some very basic things, like zoom in and out by stretching/ pulling fingers together, and to scroll with 2 fingers.

It's really quite a sight to see an old man using a red Macbook with 2 fingers on mousepad scrolling up and down his website! So cute!

Slippery road

It's a slippery road, where if I don't start to wake up, hold on and slow down the rate of slipping, or even climb back up to starting point, i may slip to a point of no return.

i love ms gem!

Totally love working with atas queen man.

You really make me laugh till my tears roll down, make me really enjoy work and love going to work because I know I'll be seeing you. Haha!

A real classic =)

Dumb, dumb, dumb!!

Decided to head to Esplanade area to chill and have some time to myself.

Looking out of the foggy glass window of the bus, I realise I was about to miss my bus stop!! So I hurriedly pressed the bell, and alighted.

And right in front of me which I thought was Esplanade, I see M hotel. Shenton Way.

Damnit! WRONG BUSSTOP!!!!!

Roar.

Haha.

Survey relooked at

In the past week, how often did you feel happy?

My answer: almost never. always =)

In the past week, how often did you feel peaceful and calm?

My answer: almost never. whenever my friends are around =)

In the past week, did you have thoughts related to ending your life?

My answer: Occasionally flickering at the back of my mind definitely.nope there's so much to know about my friends, so much more to enjoy and learn in life!

HAPPY! =) pancakes!

So Sweet!!

SMS: "If you see me coming to class smiling - It's because of you :)-

With such sweet classmates, why should I even complain about school? Thanks for being such a dear :)

Sweet Mummy

When I came home, you knocked on my door and asked me to try this wine. Wanted to refuse but saw your eager look, so I decided to try. Wow, it's really nice =) --> Mummy shares nice things with daughter.

Next, you asked me if I had dinner. I saw that you left some dishes there for me. --> Mummy cares.

Finally you asked me if I felt like eating hashbrown. You can fry some for me now (at 11.30pm??). =,= Well --> Mummy is sweet in a funny way. =)

And, although i rejected the chocolates from jeju, I came into my room to find some on my desk. =)

Thank you.

A sweet start to a long day

Coffee, coffee and more coffee.

Coffee's definitely nice to consume, but not so nice when it's all in ur bag!!

Stupid me seems to be replacing Nat to do all the dumb-est things ever -,-

I would never have put a half-closed bottle with coffee into my bag in the past...which I did so today. To my horror when I was trying to pick up a call, my phone was drenched in coffee! Of course, to my utmost horror, I see lots of coffee in my bag. Well, coffee's..not supposed to be in my bag right?? Grrrrrr....

Now, standing on my table are the weirdest things that I have possibly taken to wash under the tap before:

1. My perfume

2. My candy box

3. My laptop adaptor

4. My handphone with battery and simcard removed

I can only pray that my handphone still works after it airs dry. Or maybe this is a sign to get the i-phone.... :)

Nostalgia

Looking at pictures of fun times at CO, listening to SYF recordings, although not mine, brings back so much, so much. Every picture can come to life and there are just so many stories, so many memories, so much behind that flat, 2D piece of graphic. Every piece of music record encrypts feelings and messages in them.

What happened to my passion for music?
Why can I not feel the same anymore?

Nanyang days in CO were really great, nothing has been close to that feeling. Having a common goal, working towards it together, laughing the tough times away, playing with passion for the music, and orchestra...pure fun.

At least, I have those memories.

Food, food and more food

Stress makes people hungry?

Menu for today was:
-chwee kueh x 5 at 12pm
-homecooked pasta at 3pm
-macdonalds meal at 5pm
-ichiban boshi meal at 7.30pm
-starbucks coffee at 8.30pm
-1/2 pack caramel corn at 11.30pm

The most obvious common thing amongst these foods --> fat fat fat!!!!! HELP!!

Happy Halloween!!

Dressing up and being ridiculous are definitely the aims of Halloween!

I've never expected the Halloween scene in Singapore to feel like that, but it's nice to see people dressing up and doing things out of the box for once!

From school girls to witches to mummies to furry gorillas to erm. orange juice... A lot of creativity was reflected in all the costumes, and how the items are made use of to add to the costume.

For us, it was a slightly simpler job of renting rather than building our own. Theme: Alice in Wonderland (without Alice). =)

It was fun to go out in such clothes for a change, something that you will never ever do in Singapore on any other day as long as you're in the right mind. We took many photos, people took many photos of us, people not letting us leave because they want to take photos with us.... It was a chore to walk through Clarke Quay!! Much less to say, with the very heavy dress and spoiling heels that I wore. But it was a really great experience =)

Thank you guys for the night!

DinneR!

Company of 3 friends + 2 boxes takopachi + sausages + terriyaki chicken rice + 6 bowls of dessert = enjoyed dinner + fats. :)

solitude

好想一個人。

好不想，一個人。

不用想，怎樣都是一個人啦。

Survey from NTU students

Today I did a survey given out by NTU students during my lecture to help them on their research.

In the past week, how often did you feel happy?

My answer: almost never.

In the past week, how often did you feel peaceful and calm?

My answer: almost never.

In the past week, did you have thoughts related to ending your life?

My answer: Occasionally flickering at the back of my mind definitely.

有些問題，沒有答案還是要問

對自己坦誠，

多坦誠，

我自有分寸。

virtual, or real?

到底是真，是假？

我的世界是真正的我，還是virtual的我？

～

怎麼活著，一點真實感都沒有呢？

還是virtual的我就是真的我？

～

腦袋到底是裝甚麼？

～

我走過的路，會有腳印嗎？

一個人走著的感覺

很少一個人來esplanade。

但從走進esplanade的感覺，到聽到大家在esplanade外的餐廳吃飯說話的聲音，到走到河邊的感覺，真的讓我把一切都忘了。

聽者mp3，腦力只有一種輕鬆的快樂。

在橋上，抬起頭，往前走，似乎不存在的感覺，看著大家拍照和拍拖，真的讓我relax了腳步，回味自己的memories。

這種感覺好久都沒有了。

～

原本在巴士心情還蠻差的，原本想follow my head而avoid places with too many memories。

還好沒有。跟著心走，就在esplanade下了車。 跟著心走，才能感受到這感覺。

還好，沒有把你封鎖著。

Visit to the Istana!!

Featured in this article:

Experiencing free fall...

Ready, 1,2,3!

Jump jump jump, then run run run!!

A fun-filled day =)

Cat being overly comfortable at void deck

Really... what's with cats nowadays... do they really have to lie around like that at void decks?

-,-

Lesson learnt from Second Life Lesson

A lesson on second life..is actually quite cool!

5.15pm Gather at shout-out corner to teleport to the class together.

Basically there are several channels of communication that we can use: local chat and IM would be the more common ones. Local chat allows us to talk to the people who are nearby, while IM would be one-to-one conversation.

5.30pm When most people have gathered, we will all teleport to the classroom together.

The classroom, as we had been briefed previously, has a U shaped table with chairs where we could sit, and a projector screen where the powerpoint slides will be shown. Behind us were actually sofas where lecturers could take a seat "comfortably" if they wanted to.

Here in the classroom, local chat was used to facilitate class discussion, and I have to say that it works quite well to generate ideas rather than in face to face lessons. Perhaps because it's in the form of typing, that's why it appears as though many people are trying to talk, including me.

Going for a lesson on second life has made me understand why people are so attracted to this hyperreality. This is where you can do what you want (for example be a DJ if you always wanted to but never had a chance to in real life and earn linden dollars for doing this job!) and you can make a business out of it, be it in the virtual world for linden dollars, or exchanging these virtual properties for real cash.

Although it was really a weird experience, and to a certain extent, "lame" experience as many people commented, it was really a worthy experience.

This was how I had my lesson. Aircon+ stable wireless+ bubble tea + potato chips + msn on desktop + second life on laptop + lecturer's voice booming in my room + ibun + sitting and swinging on my rolling chair. Totally different what I have in school. =)

Diary of a Blonde

Bukit Timah Food Centre

好累的一天。

睡了三個小時，就去站在店里看店。真的是看店，因為都沒顧客啊。

看完了，還好有兩個好人來找我。

去了朋友的office，在那裡小睡了一下。

然後就去吃晚餐。

上次去bukit timah food centre 時，是還在決定人生的路該如何走。是和好朋友去香港讀書或找工作，還是留在新加坡呢？那時，已經好久了！

今天，又到了bukit timah food centre，大吃了一頓！有 fried kway tiao，chwee kueh, chicken wing，satay bee hoon，cuttlefish 和 生魚片。加sugarcane juice.

好豐富的一餐，說說笑笑的，吃得真的很開心。

吃飽了，還走去macdonalds吃了非常sinful的Mcflurry!

哈哈，現在到家了，還有湯和咖哩菜，更少不了的：月餅！哈哈。

大吃大喝，週末又結束了。沒的slack，只能開始slave了！

It's a happy day :)

今天好開心，似乎把煩惱都拋開。如果選擇不放開，那根本不會有今天。

謝謝我有這些朋友，讓我有機會體會我從沒有想過會有的經驗。

說真的，如果沒有他們，我哪裡可能會要去istana呢？

Little India也是我從沒想去逛過的地方，還選擇在deepavali去。終於也有機會去mustafa，還走過一條好uh，特別的街。

晚上還好有去找pig先生，他也陪了我看一部超好看的電影：

500 days of Summer - it's a story about a guy meeting a girl, but it's not that typical a love story. Reality is portrayed in this show to be so light-hearted, and this reality somehow feels so close to me. So true in the show, why put labels on ourselves? As long as we are happy, who cares?

我覺得是不會再有這樣的一天的。So, a really big thank you to you guys who made my day today! =)

沒有你們，我可能已經放棄了。

就那一點，那麼難嗎？？

已經說的清清楚楚，請不要動我的東西，真的真的有那麼難嗎？？

我還把它們都蓋著，放在一旁，讓你門用剩餘的空間，還不夠嗎？

為甚麼，你們到底几時才肯把我放在眼里呢？難道說，家人就能這樣嗎？

感覺上，雖然自己那麼大的一間房，怎麼一點私人空間都沒有？？

我到底搬回來幹嘛？？？

好，我道歉，我自私。有些東西是我的，我真的不想share可以嗎？還要我問你們的意見嗎？

有時也不是說我不要share，但事實是你們為了要哄小孩子，而弄壞對我有sentimental value的東西，你說我還幹讓你們拿嗎？你們根本不尊重我的東西啊，不尊重我啊。

請你們，開始把我放在眼里。我也是人，需要我的空間，還有我是有我自己的意見的ok.

－－－

或許是我們太不一樣了。