DinneR!

Company of 3 friends + 2 boxes takopachi + sausages + terriyaki chicken rice + 6 bowls of dessert = enjoyed dinner + fats. :)

solitude

好想一個人。

好不想，一個人。

不用想，怎樣都是一個人啦。

Survey from NTU students

Today I did a survey given out by NTU students during my lecture to help them on their research.

In the past week, how often did you feel happy?

My answer: almost never.

In the past week, how often did you feel peaceful and calm?

My answer: almost never.

In the past week, did you have thoughts related to ending your life?

My answer: Occasionally flickering at the back of my mind definitely.

有些問題，沒有答案還是要問

對自己坦誠，

多坦誠，

我自有分寸。

virtual, or real?

到底是真，是假？

我的世界是真正的我，還是virtual的我？

～

怎麼活著，一點真實感都沒有呢？

還是virtual的我就是真的我？

～

腦袋到底是裝甚麼？

～

我走過的路，會有腳印嗎？

一個人走著的感覺

很少一個人來esplanade。

但從走進esplanade的感覺，到聽到大家在esplanade外的餐廳吃飯說話的聲音，到走到河邊的感覺，真的讓我把一切都忘了。

聽者mp3，腦力只有一種輕鬆的快樂。

在橋上，抬起頭，往前走，似乎不存在的感覺，看著大家拍照和拍拖，真的讓我relax了腳步，回味自己的memories。

這種感覺好久都沒有了。

～

原本在巴士心情還蠻差的，原本想follow my head而avoid places with too many memories。

還好沒有。跟著心走，就在esplanade下了車。 跟著心走，才能感受到這感覺。

還好，沒有把你封鎖著。

Visit to the Istana!!

Featured in this article:

Experiencing free fall...

Ready, 1,2,3!

Jump jump jump, then run run run!!

A fun-filled day =)

Cat being overly comfortable at void deck

Really... what's with cats nowadays... do they really have to lie around like that at void decks?

-,-

Lesson learnt from Second Life Lesson

A lesson on second life..is actually quite cool!

5.15pm Gather at shout-out corner to teleport to the class together.

Basically there are several channels of communication that we can use: local chat and IM would be the more common ones. Local chat allows us to talk to the people who are nearby, while IM would be one-to-one conversation.

5.30pm When most people have gathered, we will all teleport to the classroom together.

The classroom, as we had been briefed previously, has a U shaped table with chairs where we could sit, and a projector screen where the powerpoint slides will be shown. Behind us were actually sofas where lecturers could take a seat "comfortably" if they wanted to.

Here in the classroom, local chat was used to facilitate class discussion, and I have to say that it works quite well to generate ideas rather than in face to face lessons. Perhaps because it's in the form of typing, that's why it appears as though many people are trying to talk, including me.

Going for a lesson on second life has made me understand why people are so attracted to this hyperreality. This is where you can do what you want (for example be a DJ if you always wanted to but never had a chance to in real life and earn linden dollars for doing this job!) and you can make a business out of it, be it in the virtual world for linden dollars, or exchanging these virtual properties for real cash.

Although it was really a weird experience, and to a certain extent, "lame" experience as many people commented, it was really a worthy experience.

This was how I had my lesson. Aircon+ stable wireless+ bubble tea + potato chips + msn on desktop + second life on laptop + lecturer's voice booming in my room + ibun + sitting and swinging on my rolling chair. Totally different what I have in school. =)

Diary of a Blonde

Bukit Timah Food Centre

好累的一天。

睡了三個小時，就去站在店里看店。真的是看店，因為都沒顧客啊。

看完了，還好有兩個好人來找我。

去了朋友的office，在那裡小睡了一下。

然後就去吃晚餐。

上次去bukit timah food centre 時，是還在決定人生的路該如何走。是和好朋友去香港讀書或找工作，還是留在新加坡呢？那時，已經好久了！

今天，又到了bukit timah food centre，大吃了一頓！有 fried kway tiao，chwee kueh, chicken wing，satay bee hoon，cuttlefish 和 生魚片。加sugarcane juice.

好豐富的一餐，說說笑笑的，吃得真的很開心。

吃飽了，還走去macdonalds吃了非常sinful的Mcflurry!

哈哈，現在到家了，還有湯和咖哩菜，更少不了的：月餅！哈哈。

大吃大喝，週末又結束了。沒的slack，只能開始slave了！

It's a happy day :)

今天好開心，似乎把煩惱都拋開。如果選擇不放開，那根本不會有今天。

謝謝我有這些朋友，讓我有機會體會我從沒有想過會有的經驗。

說真的，如果沒有他們，我哪裡可能會要去istana呢？

Little India也是我從沒想去逛過的地方，還選擇在deepavali去。終於也有機會去mustafa，還走過一條好uh，特別的街。

晚上還好有去找pig先生，他也陪了我看一部超好看的電影：

500 days of Summer - it's a story about a guy meeting a girl, but it's not that typical a love story. Reality is portrayed in this show to be so light-hearted, and this reality somehow feels so close to me. So true in the show, why put labels on ourselves? As long as we are happy, who cares?

我覺得是不會再有這樣的一天的。So, a really big thank you to you guys who made my day today! =)

沒有你們，我可能已經放棄了。

就那一點，那麼難嗎？？

已經說的清清楚楚，請不要動我的東西，真的真的有那麼難嗎？？

我還把它們都蓋著，放在一旁，讓你門用剩餘的空間，還不夠嗎？

為甚麼，你們到底几時才肯把我放在眼里呢？難道說，家人就能這樣嗎？

感覺上，雖然自己那麼大的一間房，怎麼一點私人空間都沒有？？

我到底搬回來幹嘛？？？

好，我道歉，我自私。有些東西是我的，我真的不想share可以嗎？還要我問你們的意見嗎？

有時也不是說我不要share，但事實是你們為了要哄小孩子，而弄壞對我有sentimental value的東西，你說我還幹讓你們拿嗎？你們根本不尊重我的東西啊，不尊重我啊。

請你們，開始把我放在眼里。我也是人，需要我的空間，還有我是有我自己的意見的ok.

－－－

或許是我們太不一樣了。

0_0 a common scenario

For example: To alight at Clementi MRT station

Bus approaching NTUC Clementi.. thinks to myself: oh please do not forget to alight.

By the time I look up again, SHIT I'm leaving the MRT station stop already.

No choice, can only alight next stop, or 2 stops later depending on how late I realise.

Gas meter check

For once, the person who checks the gas meter managed to get into the house.

Not because I wanted to let him in, but so coincidental that my door was opened and he was standing outside. :S

Guy: Gas meter. Gas meter.

Me: Oh, ok. You want to come in?

Guy: (gives a look - is this person dumb?)

Me: (thinking to myself: how i know right?) (opens gate)

Guy walks into kitchen. I follow.

Guy: (looks left and right)

Me: (looks left and right)

Guy: Where is the gas meter?

Me: (shocked that he doesn't know after checking so many houses) I don't know? (like how the hell I will know lah....)

Me: Under the stove? (opens cupboard under stove)

Maid: (looks at us)

Me: (to maid) Do you know where is the gas meter?

Maid: I don't know. Maybe you can try next cupboard.

Me: (opens next cupboard) uh..i don't think so.

--All this while the guy was quite useless....--

Me: (looks around, feeling a little amused that no one knows) (ah, I think I see it) Ok, I think it's there.

Finally, we found the gas meter...........

I wonder if they can send more competent and useful and efficient staff to check gas meters instead next time.........

我所以為的我，根本不是我

曾經以為自己沒那麼喜歡social的東西，現在發現了沒有朋友真的不行。

原本還擔心可能會封閉自己，發現那根本不是我啊。

多麼希望有人能了解，有人能體諒，有人會關心。

多麼希望，時時刻刻身旁都會有個人，有個真的懂我的。

沒人時，惡夢開始。開始胡思亂想，開始怕，開始徬徨，開始不理智。

害怕黑暗，連睡覺都開著燈。生命中的燈光，似乎好遠好遠了。似乎都看不到了。

現在的我，真的是我嗎？還是說，以前的我，不是我呢？

沒感覺，沒想法，只是我的逃避吧。

沒失去過，真的不會懂..

快樂似乎好遠，

傷心似乎也沒離開過。

也過了一段時間了。

也該習慣了吧。

但是真的習慣，還是都感覺都麻木了呢？