Saturday, May 29, 2010

猜穿

我說:覺得生命就像是個謊言。My life is just a lie.
朋友說:如果活在這謊言里會開心,為何要知道真相?

想想看,朋友說得也沒錯。
我在尋找的是甚麼真相?
我知道了真相,會更開心嗎?

真相。謊言。Life's meaning. Life's goals. 這些毫無意思的字,到底包含著甚麼?
其實自己的人生的一切都來自於腦袋里所fabricate的illusions。
我想也沒分真假吧。

所以,我到底在尋找甚麼?

Sunday, May 23, 2010

一片真心

如果這世界少了真心,那世界應該會是灰色的吧。

一片真心,用心感受,感覺好溫暖,好開心。

我是個很幸運的人吧,感覺上我周圍的朋友都是已真心和我做朋友。

有時候,漸漸的感受不到真心,真的很不好受。
有時候,少了真心,甚至好想放棄友情。
有時候,感受不到別人對別人的真心,不知怎麼覺得好遺憾。

或許有些人不肯付出真心吧,因為付出了真心似乎變得比較vulnerable。付出真心,難道就會得到真心嗎?

但我相信,真心的對待朋友,就會遇到對的人,真心的對待你。

這世界是可以充滿色彩的。

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

想想想

閒空時,總喜歡想。
朋友都開始說或許我想太多了。

想。

把簡單的生活都想到複雜了。

心中最大的困擾就是害怕失去。
往往因為害怕失去,寧願根本不要有曾經。
有了曾經的一段,更害怕失去,失去時也會更痛。

想多了,總是繞著同樣一個問題:我到底對自己多坦誠?有沒有對自己撒謊?

總是一個人,還是害怕一個人,因為一個人面對的是自己。



學會了習慣,學會了依賴。
接下來要學著信賴,學著樂觀。

Sunday, May 16, 2010

最幸福的事:那一陣子有你,美得不像現實

Bejeweled addiction

No. 1 sign of addiction to Bejeweled Blitz:
When you are bathing and looking at the mosaic wall in the toilet, thinking about how to switch their positions to create power gems.

This is bad. Craze for bejeweled started ever since paying for the game on iphone. Should have started playing this game more to understand how it influences addiction to casual games to help in writing the ISM paper. How can the simple mechanics of the game captivate so much attention?!

And my scores are getting lower and lower. argh. And I have to say I'm quite bad at using the mac mousepad to play bejeweled recently.

Must jiayou for bejeweled!!! Oh wait.. I think i'm supposed to spend this time looking for a job instead!!!! =| argh.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

習慣

漸漸的習慣,適應。
開心的,安心的。
但,久而久之,會怎麼樣?

不敢想像,不敢期待。
或許真的是自己想太多。

好無奈。

《這是幸福的等候,或心酸的前奏?要放下太多的疑惑, 才能专心去快乐!》

Thursday, May 6, 2010

尋找

每天毫無目標的過著。
今天起,我的心情也應該安定下了吧。

為何還是感到無力?
為何還是在浪費時間?

真的是沒有用!
我到底有甚麼人生目標,到底有沒有人生目標?

存在的意義,在哪裡?

Monday, May 3, 2010

It kind of hurts... but here we are.

"This is the way my family is. We are here for one another."

Bitching about one another, family politics, all the norm. Yah, they all exist in my family too. But I have a beautiful family. When something happens, we all stand through it together. We might not talk about it much. But at least, we are there for one another, to support one another, to be together in all goods and bads, to not abandon one another when we all so need one another.

Maybe to many people it's a waste of time just to spend time together. But at least, we are there. And I know, we are all there, whether or not we may be physically there. We all live on, pull through together and help one another along.

I have a beautiful family, I know it, and I love it.

Life goes on, we move on, and you guys will be strong.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

《永遠》的不存在

永遠,是永遠不存在的。
今天有,明天或許就失去了。
親情,友情,愛情。一切都沒有永遠。

好好珍惜每一刻。
對你愛的人知道你愛他們。
讓你關心的人得到你的關心。

你不會知道,哪一次的《再見》是最後一次。
永遠是不會再來的。