Off, away from Singapore. That is what I always wanted. Away from all the noise, worries, thoughts. Just indulge in fun and laughter and brainless-ness. Of course, this time I can't escape from work and my dearest laptop will be visiting Shanghai with me.
I do look forward to the getaway time from Singapore though. Really need some space and time to think about my life: what I have done, what I am doing and what I will do.
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看著freshmusic在錄podcast，好好玩，感覺好羨慕哦。總在想：為甚麼自己沒有一個肯定的目標，喜歡的也不去追求。現在的我，似乎漸漸的陷入懶散的生活，生命力也減少。希望，期望，夢想，妄想，都隨著時間淡了，生命奮鬥力減少了。從不讓現實打敗的我，漸漸的陷入現實中。好不喜歡這樣的自己，時常也會想著生命的意義。
但，生命的意義又是甚麼？是為了別人而活還是該為自己而活？是找到自己喜歡和想追求的還是賺錢過生活？是找到幸福和快樂？
曾經容易被滿足的我，現在再已不是。記得媽媽在我小時候老是對我說：Be contented，you are a lucky girl。帶著這個philosophy，我很容易感覺到contented，沒要求多。知道自己是lucky到不行，生活一直以來都很被照顧。可是我變了。不再容易被contented。Perfectionist的性格藏在深處：口頭上都ok，有時候心裡還真的不ok。
想來想去，結論都是：我還沒找到我的平衡點。How should I craft my lifestory?
I'm lost. In myself.
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